teenage girls + low self-esteem = trouble

so this is a blog entry that one of my friends put up on Nexopia... just read it..

04:17pm Dec 19, '08 Public
Are you fucking stupid? like can you not fucking see im trying so hard! and for another part, the whole fucking time im standing tthere watching you tell people to come over and dont say one thing to me, so i guess im not your friend? since all your FRIENDS are going. like fuck does NO one want to hangout with me am i that much of a fucking annoyance to you all? fuck im sure it would be so much more eaisier if i just dissapered wouldnt it, and dont go all oh i love you nikki, no you dont! or you would actually consider my feelings once in a fucking while, all i fucking do is listen to EVERYONE oh but if anyone considers letting me talk its OMG shes so annoying Well FUCK YOU! i have feelings too you know, and it just so happens im really good at reading body lanuage so if you think you cann fool me think again, i hate the fact i can see someone hating me. fuck i dnt even want to comeback after these two weeks, whats the point? im not going to get a welcome back like you all will from me. and all the people that told me your going to call me hah yeah we will see.

so i read this on my friends blog yesterday and it really made me sad to think that some people have nothing better to do. She brings her self down so much. I think that she could have so many friends if she didn't try so hard to be everyone's favorite. Like she's so much fun to be around when she's happy, but she brings her self down so much and deliberatly in front of people so that they sympathize for her and then she keeps on doing it over and over and doesn't actually let people help her. Like she does things to draw people's attention to her, and then when she suceeds and people feel bad and want to hang out with her, she pushes them away, thinking that they're only doing that to use her, or just because they feel bad for her, when that's exactly what she wants, just doesn't fucking admits it... I love her to death, but she pisses me off so much!!!